s i l l y c e

2006-08-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

byebye blogger

2006-08-23T00:01:00.000+08:00

i wanna change to live journal

2006-08-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

i've got a surprise for u (:

2006-08-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

love?
loves can make u crazy,
make u cry, make you ran a thousand miles,
make u do anything even when it hurts,
but how long do love last?
u can be hugging each other to sleep now,
but after 20,30,40,50 years of marriage,
will u still be hugging to sleep?

2006-08-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

shampoo fun,
damn shiok right.
heh, whens my turn?
(:

2006-08-02T16:21:00.000+08:00

make me angry la,
come somemore.
i`ll release my hair it`ll wrap around u
and start tightening till u stop breathing.
try me,
good bye.

2006-08-02T13:40:00.000+08:00

u suck u suck u suck u suck
u suck u suck u suck u suck
u suck u suck u suck u suck
u suck u suck u suck u suck
u suck u suck u suck u suck
u suck u suck u suck u suck
i so wanna swallow u lo.

2006-07-31T23:38:00.000+08:00

Got hair?
yes, tt was when we both had hair,
i mean, more hair than now.
its funny,
i wonder if could u still remember,
a few years ago i called u
water bottle stick man,
got u to help me return things to old flames,
pestered u a lil for your sch's math papers
and with difficult math solutions,
and u didnt know was pissed i was
and sweared tt u're jus a bad taste geek
when we met one day on the bus at toa payoh,
after i had aikido and u said my bag was very ah mah.
and now,
haha i :) you sooo much,
like frm here to there,
the uppest to the downest,
the nearest to the farthest,
haha. ok. keep it to urself.
good night crazy.
if it was ur last day on earth,
how would u wan to spend it?

2006-07-27T02:13:00.000+08:00

ive been thinking alot lately,
probably cos im in the 3rd year, and will be graduating soon,
probably cos there are alot going on ard me, lotsa changes
in the lifes of those ard me
a darling going to perth, my boy in the army, lotsa couples breaking
and leaving each other, etc.
i wanna do something, be somebody.
i know theres something that i love, and can do well,
but jus have yet to discover it.
i wan to hav an interesting life.
i wan to have lotsa experiences.
i wan to improve things.
i dun wanna like complain bot having a sad life
jus cos i hav to wake up early,
or cos im deprived of sleep cos of sch work,
or cos i cant come up with a good idea,
or cos im broke and cant go shopping, etc
i wan to be able to handle things well,
to handle crisis, to be one who
my love ones can depend on.
to be rational when i should be.
so lately ive been thinking,
bot what i lack, what i wan to add in my book of life.
what experience i wish i had, what qualities i wan to have.
and not jus look at others in awe, in envy and do nothing.
i wan to be someone people ard me can be proud of.
i`ll take up classes, i do more,
i`ll challenge my limits.
i`ll not give up.
i`ll not look down on myself.
i`ll do my best.
even if i decide to stay in the design industry or not,
i`ll still do my best in the last year.
well, its true that, nothing cannot be done if u try,
i wanted to drop ad cam, but i couldnt.
im kinda gladd i didnt.
i cant draw, but i`ll believe i can.
i think conventionally, but i`ll do all i can to
cultivate my mind to think out of the box.
i am emotional, but i`ll be rational when i still can,
so i can remind myself when i start being rational.
i will have confidence in all, in u, in me, in life.
i wan to set rules for myself, and live by it.
i wan to be an inspiration to someone
like how audrey has always been to me since young,
like how my darling is now,
like how my grandma was awesome to the 10+ yr old me.
i wan to be able to tell my kids, my grandchildren bot
my light years and hav them wanting to do as well, and better.
and then. i know this may be bad news to some,
but im starting to feel, that all can be done as long as
you believe in yourself. like i dun need to trust in someone
for somethings to happen. like, i dun have to be superficial
or need to believe that theres someone else who make things happen,
other than yourself. and that i dun need to find comfort in someone
superficial when we're constantly receiving from ppl ard us, our family and friends,
if we look feel think carefully n in different ways.
i may hav offended some, i apologise.
and you may say its only when u're at down times,
then u look up to the someone,
but lately, in my struggle in finding myself,
i was so busy struggling, wondering, pondering, talking, crying,
i dun remember depending on anyone else to pull through
other than the darlings ard me, and myself.
some people start to believe during hard times,
cos they needed something to hold on to,
but from the experience of that tough time,
i start to "un-believe" (if there was such word).
its difficult to put things like this in words.
ok enough said,
think however you want, but dun try to talk me into anything,
if i believe i will, if i wanna go i will too,
so let me be, no questions, no discriminations,
and do still love me the same (:
thank you.

2006-07-24T02:33:00.000+08:00

beautiful people!
some people are just so beautiful u wish u were them!
haha.
beautiful beautiful
so damn beautiful!
im so moved by the beautiful beautifuls
that i suspect my gender.
owhh kidding.

2006-07-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

now tt our dearest vonnie is in perth,
her darling maid, Lita can indulge in her
"Yvonne not in"s.
muahahhah.
and thanks von, for not bringing my
mons-2in-1 to perth with u.
its me, the belle, and under, u the monster.

haha. i smack ur ass for tt u noe.
jus make sure my tissue pouch is always with u.
its the submission week,
and as usual its crazy.
tired, crazy, crazy, tired.
but its good tt i can be kept busy,
while he's having another field camp.
saturday will come soon.
yay!
i miss you, and :x you.

2006-07-11T01:47:00.000+08:00

i :x you.
i :x you.
i jus suddenly wanna say i :x you!
i wanna scream i :x you!
im shy to, but
i :x you!

(:

2006-07-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

after the birthday-dont-havta-do-work-week end last week,
its dreadfully,
a have-to-start-monday.
and im sure, im having monday blues,
haha.
i cant deny i dread to go to sch.
i dread to research for comda,
i dread to brainstorm for adverting ideas,
i wanna learn new stuff,
like in comda class, we learn stuff.
im not interested in everyday consultations.
i still think every boyfriend needs a girlfriend handbook.
haha. well, but like wad mine said,
even if he had one, he wont hav the time to read it.
thanks alot, NS.

2006-07-06T02:58:00.000+08:00

getting infomation regarding time needed for students
to adapt to changes or to develop idea,
from the internet,
is more than difficult than i thought.
LexisNexis doesnt help, neither do google.
or maybe its jus my lousy online researching skills,
for impt, school related information.
and see what i found,
totally irrelevant to our topic.
but interesting yea,
if only we were urging bout wad starving can do to you.
and yay! yay day is drawing near (:

www.newscientist.com
Starve your stomach to feed your brain
25 February 2006
Andy Coghlan
Magazine issue 2540
A hormone that triggers hunger might also improve memory and learning -
the substance improved mental performance in mice by up to 40%
HERE'S food for thought: a hormone that triggers hunger might also improve
learning and memory. Ghrelin is released by the stomach when it is empty and
triggers hunger by binding to the hypothalamus, a part of the brain that controls
appetite and metabolism. However, the hormone is also known to interact with
the hippocampus, the seat of learning and memory.

Tamas Horvath of Yale Medical School and his colleagues injected mice with extra
ghrelin and found that they consistently outperformed ordinary mice in standard
laboratory tests for memory and learning. "Ghrelin improved the animals'
performance by 30 to 40 per cent," says Horvath. Post-mortems also revealed that
the treated mice had better-developed brain structure, with around 30 per cent
more brain cell connections.

In contrast, mice engineered to lack the gene for ghrelin consistently
underperformed in the tests. When injected with the hormone their performance
became normal (Nature Neuroscience, DOI: ...

The complete article is 322 words long.

2006-07-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

im EXCITED.
I CANT WAIT TILL SATURDAY COMES.
YAY!

its been damn long since i last had a shopping spree.
i got my momma to try on stuff with me
in zara and mango and la senza and topshop and pazzion
weeeehehee
thanks momma!
when i start earning for my own,
getting a decent stabel income,
i`ll bring u on shopping sprees too.
i promise :D

2006-07-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

yay! happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to meee e,
happy birthday to me.
boo! im older by a year.
thanks to all who loves me.
I love u all too,
mummy, daddy, didi, von, pea, dy, walter,
bekah, dawn, nels, jing, roy, mos,
the cousins, the churchies,
and everyone else i didnt mention.
if you love me,
i love you too.
haha.
presents?
i accept late comers heh heh heh.
thank you thank you,
(kiss blow, kiss blow blow)

2006-06-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

unfamiliar,
unfamiliar,
and unfamiliar.

2006-06-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

it was a havoc week tt passed,
last sat was the fail attempt hair cut and shopping with roy n jw,
sun was, i forgot,
mon was, kbox, mahjong and then soccer,
tues was, i also forgot,
wed was out with the girls,
thurs was the hair cut n aikido,
fri, yesterday was the crazy bbq at my hse,
sat, today,
finally, theres no crazy stuff,
no plans,
nothing to do,
jus slack chill n couch potato ard.
and ive gotto start adapting back to the normal sleep time for sch,
my sleep time is like walter's wake up time lo.
nex week, sch,
zzzzz.

2006-06-20T08:55:00.000+08:00

kill time, kill the wondering mind.
activities explosion,
less crazy thinking time.
dvds dvds dvds,
more shows, less waiting time,
they're good drowsy pills.

and dear, i hope you`ll still L me the same,
cos i still.
imu.

2006-06-17T03:01:00.000+08:00

I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

(Cause) I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say

Yes I'm wishing my life away
with these things I'll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say

there're some things, i`ll never say,

2006-06-15T22:59:00.000+08:00

there are no taxis in Johor Bahru,
there, they call them teksi

Overall, JB is boring.
the only wow, is Gina's Chamber

nice lightings,
nice music,
and best, we get to watch
the South Korea vs Togo worldcup match there (:
there r cute waiters, quite cute waitresses,
cute korean players on screen,
and interesting fellow customers,
one so pretty like a girl, when smile.
and then, at plaza Pelangi,
found a nice pair of shoes,
the size is right,
and decided to getti after much consideration,
its the last pair, which the right side the display pair,
and cos its white, the right one is grey-er then the left,
damn.

my snow white,
see u again if i got to KL or melaka soon. ):
so i repeat,
overall, the trip suck.
well, jus for me.

And if you will, I will
Try to let it go.
And if you try, I'll try
Try to let it show us the way
'Cause love is here to stay
Just look me in the eye
This is do or die
And I will stay in love
'Till you say enough
There is no giving in
There is no giving up in love.

Walk down the street
Stare at lots of things
The fast and steady streams
Again and again and again.

Do what I should
Try to stay busy
Your face is all I see
Again and again and again.

But you, you're always on my mind.
It's like this all the time.
Say it's cause you're mine
All mine...

2006-06-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

i talk abt fastening safety belts,
but mine's unbuckled.

2006-06-11T00:40:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday dear!
Love,
Monsw & me :)

2006-06-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

june02crazyCartel

2006-05-29T01:02:00.000+08:00

stressfree
how i wish everyday can jus lie on the couch,
watch dvd,
watch you sleep,
bake all the yummy pastries in the world,
sew all the stuff i wanna do,
sleep as and when i wan,
stress free
worries free
carefree
cough free!!
sore throat free
low voice free
drowsy free

2006-05-27T13:26:00.000+08:00

i found it!
(:
not tt it has any to do with the to do list.

to add on,
8. bake!
9. watch the sweet bride 18 dvd
10. for 10 yay days to come! (:
11. read, 1000 places to see before you die
12. more books.

2006-05-24T19:16:00.000+08:00

to do list:
1. complete Annual report
2. work on the ****** Logo
3. start on project Monw
4. fabric shopping!
4b. contribute to Great Singapore Sale 07!
5. empty blk escapade
6. postcard proj tt i abandoned
7. reorganise room

2006-05-23T21:54:00.000+08:00

tyrants are never good leaders.
dun fall into the oppressive trap.
or u`ll suck.

2006-05-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

check this resort in padang out man!
The Batang Arau Hotel

and the rates,
Single..................Rp180.000
Double..................Rp230.000 }++
Including continental breakfast
but, if RP is indonesian rupian,
according to http://www.forexcenter.net/currency.aspx,
its,
180.000 IDRs = 0.03 SGDs
with look quite haha to me. haha.
damn! i wan my weekend escapade #2 now!
no, its a empty block escapade! haha
i have yet to do my 2 spreads of my annual rpt,
and im planning for the post activities...
how i wish i was more ambitious in the right ways.
haha.

2006-05-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

everyone is somehow,
a stalker by nature!
we stalk on others,
and haha without us knowing!
others stalk on us too
which is,
damn freaky.
DAMN DAMN FREAKY.
lets switch to the traditional way,
writing diaries larh.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANG!

everyones equally retarded here.
hahaha. laugh with us.

Da Vinci code is good,
so good tt it got tt guy beside us,
who when to the show ALONE,
was shaking non-stop, ok almost non-stop.
throughout the exciting parts,
without realising that,
i. he was shaking the entire roll of the R seats,
or maybe jus walter's n mine.
ii. walter was staring at him frm head to leg
iii. walter took the drink frm the holder beside his leg,
and place it back with much force n hit him a lil purposely!
iv. i was laughing at him.
so leg shakers,
control.
thank you.

2006-05-17T23:08:00.000+08:00

i miss u.
whatever,
im still proud of u.
(:

too much of channel U,
im hissing the superband ad song lo!
omg.
lucky there no one in my room to SHHH me.
wahaha..
siii sii siii. sii si siiiisiiii
n im quite breathless now
haha

2006-05-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

missing girl, Dy.
i miss the PL days,
where the 5 of us will hang ard after sch tgt everyday,
or rush off to meet our various Bfs,
and our regular meetings to resolve the always same problems.
the call n conference everynight,
the DDR, Parapara arcade days (ew).
we always look back n envy those days,
and feel a lil regretful for not treasuring them.
Always. (:
mos on Fri, Pea, Von, Krys and the boys.
and met ruis there.
its been sooo long.
more more! more once-in-a-whiles (:

2006-05-14T00:44:00.000+08:00

nobody knows where they might end up,
nobody knows......

2006-05-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes, when some people-to-people relationships don't work out,
don't ask, "Hey! what did i do man?"
instead, question what you didn't do.
it difficult to keep up to expectations.
and esp expectation of others,
cos u don't know whats on their minds,
what exactly they want,
or how exactly they feel.
how i wish i had a human affection reader,
don't you?
then, no one will be hurt.
hur hur.

friday is coming!
this week,
friday is yayday!

2006-05-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

147
147 is a yucky bus
u`ll meet ji go pehs
who`ll not stop staring at u!
jus cos u're a YOUNG girl.
then there`ll be an indian lady
giving u the yuck!-are-you-sick?! look,
cos u're blowing ur mucus,
like as if its some crime,
and then the ah peh beside u
moving a seat away like u're some freak
while u're giving tt person
who stared the its-not-a-crime look
then when u yawn,
the ji goh peh will stare and then
pretend to yawn too CHEEKILY!
omg.
then u`ll return the yuck!-are-you-sick?! look
frm the indian lady to that ji goh peh!
but.
im still happy!
cos i got my hair cut! yes again!!!
everyone start chopping off ur long boring hairs now!!
weeeeeeee

2006-05-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

did you ever talk to God?
did you ever talk to God above
tell him that you need a friend to love
pray in Jesus' name
believe in that,
God answers prays

you can whisper in the crowd to him
you can cry when you're alone to him
you don't to pray out loud to him
he knows your thoughts

in the highest mountain peak, he's there
in the meadow by the stream, he's there
anywhere oh earth you go
he's been there frm the start

you can tell him all your cares and woes
every tiny little fear he knows
you'll be strong because he walks with you
just believe in that
and he will answer prays

this was my favourite when i was in pri sch,
ok i admit i forgot some of it already.
but still its comforting to sing (:

2006-04-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

2006-04-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

this sounds damn funny.
RECURIT WAFFLE SONG!
wahahahah.
its super funny as im forced to listen
to him play the guitar and sing his ODAC song
and look him in the eye while he do that.
and especially funny cos its not a romantic song,
its his CCA team song.
and y do i have to listen to that?
cos tts the only song my waffle song can play on the guitar!
hahhaha.

2006-04-24T21:17:00.001+08:00

goodbyes are difficult.
to me, goodbyes are all about
Rain and tears are the same but in the sun
You've got to play the game
When you cry in winter time
You can't pretend
It's nothing but the rain

Rain and tears in the sun
But in your heart you feel the rainbow waves
Rain or tears both are the same
But in my heart
There'll never be a star
Rain and tears are the same
But in the sun you've got to play the game

heard this is from the Three Times movie,
cool art direction for all 3parts,
thou like the review frm FiRST, it dun gel.
but worth watching if u like slow movies.
and tt rain and tears song by Aphrodite's Child
is really cute.

2months have passed,
ive learnt alot in Trine,
as well as learnt alot abot myself.
yes, im convinced, more than convinced that i suck with layout.
haha. but its not goodbye for Trine,
i`ll still be helping in their in-house thingie.
and i still owe them a vogue, which is still with aaron.
Rain & tears for my sick boy, whos zzzing at home now,
and still havta book in tml.
its quite demoralising to be looking after the sick,
its like being a maid, but u`ll feel obliged to do everything
to make them feel better. haha.
i know how mummys feel wen we're sick now.
everything in a relationship, its not all abot loving
and being loved.
its also like a self-developing crash course.
and learning to give to share, not jus trival things,
but learning to share ur life with someone else.
(:
I WANNA CUT HAIR!

2006-04-14T22:11:00.000+08:00

如果没有你

did anyone tell you, i fancy karen mok
and idolise her, and even bought her lastest cd?
did anyone tell you, im a fan of my dumb?
and did anyone tell you, we`ll only (maybe) getto see
each other (appart from the requent refering to photographs)
only E I G H T days later?
did anyone tell you, im a super weak-like-to-tear girl?

J gives the sick looking white rubber ducky,Dumb Duck, with lotsa
mini red hearts ard its body to W.
J "mus bring into camp and kiss it good morning
and good night hor."
W puts Dumb Duck into bag.
W " later they check our stuff time
sergeant ask:
RECURIT SONG! WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?!"

wahahhahaahhahahahh

2006-04-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

PH
the big PH, hail to the PHs.
public holidays.
to me, they used to be jus extra slack days ,
now, they're so so much more significant.
Good Friday, Labour day, Vesak Day,
keep flipping the calendar!
National day, ehh is tt holiday for the army boys?
Hari raya Puasa, CHRISTMAS!, Hari raya Haji,
and its New Year again!
omg. so lil. the waiting is pathetic.
i miss you! so so so so so so so so so much.
like frm jurong east to harbourfront, nono punggol,
no JB!.
no! from antarctica, to arctic! ):

2006-04-08T12:31:00.000+08:00

Say Hello,

to Botakhood,
to confining to national service,
to only 9.30 to 10.30pm with me,
to only weekends at home.
and i have to get use to that too.
i cant call you as and when i like,
i only can wait ):
Takecare!
and, Stay the same,
even thou ur hairstyle change.
imu.

2006-04-04T21:31:00.000+08:00

31mar-02apr06
these are the most exciting days of my boring life.
and this is the most exciting blog entry so far. haha
Tioman was SHIOK!
for a noob like me, newbie to exploring the world,
the trip was ENRICHING!!! (:
w "happy?"
j "ok lor."
w " mus say excited."
j "excited..."
w"excited?"
j "ok lor"
w ".. happy."
Dayone We set off frm hm at 530AM, mrt to kranji,
170 to JB Larkin, Bus to Mersing, Ferry to TIOMAN!!
woohOOoo!
3+PM: arrive at ABC Jetty,
the ticket aunty claim tt she called for someone
to send us frm ABC Jetty to the Panuba Inn Jetty,
where our resort is, but when we're there,
haha no 1 came.
well, we've got company (:

we dun get to run ard in pampers anymore haha
i cant get enough of them. w/o their warming laughters,
i would be complaining about the wait.
well. we decided to walk.
then we met this kind man. he told us its not walkable,
its a hill away. :O woah. we hitched a ride into the village.

i love that place la. i was excited, happy everything! jumping ard like....
like.. a frog?
haha and got cosy with the kids.

w "how long to Panuba Inn?"
village boy "5minutes!"
j "wanna take photo?"
village boys "okokk!!" *calls for another boy.
boy can running into the picture.
j "1, 2, 3 CHEEZE!"

w "how? u wan to climb the mountain?"
j "5 minutes only! climb lor (:"

ya, 5 minutes. ya right.
these r jus BEFORE the climb,
when we, or rather i still have energy to shoot.
i should hav gotten more shots,
my 1st climb leh!
heh. but i need my both hands to rest lean grab
on rocks, trees, ropes.
j "how come in the mountain got these stone paths 1?"
w "by those ppl who live in the mountains lo"
j " wah! slowly leh. im noob eh."
w "haha ok step on the sharper part of the rock,
the steep part easier to slip"
j " huh, really meh? wahahha how come u sweat until like tt!?"
w "im carry ur bag oso leh"
j "yahor. ok lor. haha"

Heere we r, Panuba Inn resort.
this is our hut's neighbour. after tt, was too sweaty to touch my camera (:
daytwo
5AM j "wake up leh. lets go see sunrise"
w"crazy ah. the sun rise at the other side. mus climb there lo"
j "climb la? lets go"
w "siao. sleep lar"
j "):"
830am Rise and shine.breakfast
SNORKEL! SUNTAN! WHOOHOOOO
damn cool ok i tell u! (: (: (:
we snorkelled frm our beach, the panuba beach to the abc jetty beach.
but not the the jetty la. tts far. i wanted to. but walter siao me haha.
its really
w "happy?"
j "excited"
w " excited?"
j "happy!"
haha! corals corals! i stood one 1. damn damn shiok!
how i wish i had a waterproof camera!
we were floating on the water with our life jackets la.
DAMN SHOIK!!!!!!!!!
w" lets snorkel back and watch the sunset in the sea"
j" okok!!!"
but in the end we didnt, cos we wanted to bath n watch
the sunset smelling good and feeling smooth haha
but. it was too cloudy, see sunset - mission fail.

but we did some dumb stuff.
j" we cna use self timer (:"
i set the 2 sec one.
w" set the 10 sec 1 la. 2 sec how to take?"
j " yahor! haha"
set 10 secs, press.
"faster faster"
j "u mus hoot me"
w ' hoi ah!"
the jump and piggybag higher sound. hahahhahhaa

we ate like kings and queens!
see the cats wanna be kings and queens too haha

after dusk, my beauty shop opens.
i offer scrubbing, masking, squeezing, massaging (maybe).
haha.
sleepy daythree
we slept till like 9+ had breakfast,
slept abit more till 12+
lunch. slack.
2pm, jetty. 3pm speed boat.
while waiting, we got company again.

crabs. haha. haha. we're dumb.
oh no. he;s dumb, im what.

Byebye tioman. thanks for the fun and the BURN.
Johor, Foodstreet
we ordered, squid prawn hokkien mee,
samba bbq sotong, crayfish, stingray,
and CHILLI CRAB. spent like eh 60RM only.
hahahaa.. ate till we both got numb lips, bloated really ROUND stomach.
w " actually u can eat alot"
j "yeap, i hav selective stomach storage space"
w " oh issit."
check out the jam to singapore. woohoo. its not DI.

j" we look spastic"
w "by taking the photo like tt, we're already spastic"
j "ok lor."
the 3days 2nights really was a gr8 experience for me.
i learnt alot. frm drinking salt walter, haha to snorkeling,
to climbing mountain, to sweating, to bath, to floating,
to kinging-and-queening, to many many.
thankyou boy, for the trip, and knowing the place well. (:
the more i learn, the more i love
yay! where's nex?
phuket? langkawi? hawaii?
(:

2006-03-28T01:19:00.000+08:00

wisdom
i have wisdom now,
that ive got one of the WT out,
WT, wisdom tooth.
haha.
its starting to hurt,
and i cant brush my teeth properly!
brushing teeth is like one of the greatest pleasures
when im bathing lar.
and now tt i can hardly open my mouth,
i cant enjoy tt pleasure :(
work's been stressful.
haha ok its only monday.
sappy old love songs,
i can relate to them, haha.
or rather the sad ones.
OUCH OUCH OUCH,
it was really scary,
i mean the Op.
i was singing
"Jesus loves the lil children,
all the children of the world.
red and yellow black and white
all are precious in his sight,
Jesus loves the lil children of the world."
inside of me, while shaking my leg,
the way i hate ppl to, but i was jus tooo scared.
oh and funnily,
with this half swollen mouth,
i still can talk,
but hav problems with P, any words tt starts with P,
hahahhahahha
ok goodnite half swollen face.
oh and guess wad?
im singing along to TLC's damage,
haha i still can sing!

2006-03-21T02:17:00.000+08:00

nag
i feel like im getting old.
becoming a nag, a nuisence to the girls.
like im the mother nagging for the kids to come home
and have dinner to spend time together, but always getting rejected.
and it feels soo much like u girls emphasise sooo much
on doing wad when we meet and not the gathering
not the time spend tgt.
im starting to feel like we think differently,
or rather, i think differently.
i wan to jus spend time together,
hearing wads going on in ur lives, frmm you 1st handedly,
hearing your voices, seeing your expressions change as you talk about ur days.
like no matter how tired i am after work,
i wouldnt mind meeting up,
but did i or us ever crossed your busy minds?
i hope all 3 of u, or maybe 4 of u r reading this.
i wan u girls to know how much u mean to me,
and how much i hope we can start doing some maintainence to our friendships.
we do meet up individually, well tts the lil friendships we keep up with
but what about us as a whole? the friendship of the grp of us?
and thou sometimes i get really pissed, fed up, discouraged and even start bitching bot you,
well, the mama ll still love her kids,
like how i`ll love u girls.
ok, so BE GOOD LA,
or i`ll get the cane.

2006-03-20T15:34:00.000+08:00

the Temptations

I've got sunshine
On a cloudy day.
When it's cold outside,
I've got the month of May.

I've got so much honey
The bees envy me.
I've got a sweeter songThan the birds in the trees.

Ooooh, Hoooo.
Hey, hey, hey.
Hey, hey, hey.

I don't need no money,
Fortune or fame.
I've got all the riches, baby,
One man can claim.

Well, I guess you'll say
What can make me feel this way?
My girl. (My girl, my girl)
Talkin' 'bout my girl. (My girl)
I've even got the month of May With my girl.

stay leh (:

2006-03-19T01:58:00.000+08:00

WAD.

"You DUMB or WHAT? "

"WHAT la! You DUMB or WHAT?"

"WHAT."

"No, you're DUMB, im WHAT."

Mission Fail - F
Mission Completed - C
Visit to Grandma's old hse: C
Shooting: F
Window Shopping: C
No movies today: F

my bro has aikido grading on 19March06 10.30AM.

19march06, 2.09AM,
" Jie, NIKYO is what?"

2006-03-16T14:21:00.000+08:00

freeloop
this song's been stuck in my head since
i heard it on the morning show.
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright

Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
nono not the ONS.

really tired this week.
been sleeping late,
i tend to sleep early when he's ard (in sg i mean).
haha so now its back to the
100% entertainment nites and falling
asleep in front of the tv,
waking up later,
and rushing, and feeling lethargic in the day.
esp when i dun get interrupting smses
and sudden phone calls.
quick come back before i forget you can?
haha
eeyer i shall leavet all those misshy warshy stuff out,
or i`ll feel silly dumb like
how i was when i was childish, young, stupid, dumb.
haha alritey
Blushe cycle VII ll be out soon.
i jus need to find the time to upload the pics;
this time, its STUDDS. affordable i tell u.
so stay tune and get STUDDED.

Love looks not with the eyes,
but with the mind,
and therefore is wing'd
cupid painted blind
- William Shakespeares

2006-03-13T00:09:00.000+08:00

TakeCare

the surprise party was, i can say, quite a success,
we punk'd her.
she was shocked, surprised, and most importantly happy. (:
well i hope she really was!
happy 19th jingwen!
and its pass 12,
happy 17th birthday Desmond!

stayed over at Dy's hse last nite.
(ohh jus pretend u didnt see my stripe underwear at the bg.)
i missed her soo much man (:
and check out what i found!

omg, we were sooo DISGUSTING!
the pose, the hair, the face, oh EW!
hhahhaa
but we were quite cute wad.
hahaha check out piggy pearly,
ah du hair cindy,
quite normal von,
omg, tt hair cut RUI!
peijun's center parting,
cartoon face evonne,
and eew curly hair me,
the pl SHORT HAIRs.
wahahhaha. lets jus laugh la yea.
i think they shouldnt change the short hair rule.
yeap, so they`ll hav short hair till they grad frm pl,
and den the hair ll grow
den everyone ll think
"wooahh, Pl produce pretty ladies"
-..-
its nite no.2.
i only miss poking boxing and disturbing.
ya, thats all lor.
nothing much.
haha.
jus come back in one piece,
and not try to cast LOST 3,
but this time is a grp climbing some mountain at msia.
haha ok choi.
good nite,
i`ll start chanting for the mosquitoes and mountain bugs
to stay away frm you
aww, aint i nice (:

2006-03-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

i wanna travel ard the world, are you game?
after working office hours for like 7days,
doing design stuff,
highly hav to go beyond your limits, your favor, your style to satisfy your clients,
i feel, im soo not game for it yet.
but im game for travelling ard the world.
n guess what?
i found a perfect solution.
ive already downloaded the application form
for my future use after i grad frm temasek poly.
so should you.
here, this is the surprise.
i`ll jus lose weight, n keep skipping
incase i shrink frm my jus nice height.
and go for interview after i grad.
yes darlings!
are you game?

2006-03-05T01:25:00.000+08:00

bake,sew,grandma's party

after a week of 0930 to 1800 working,
and the joy i had today,
making Chocolate Bailey Ganache,
sewing the Black J,
and the not so awesome party,
i feel,
like jus forgetting about the career woman dream
and jus be a sweet stay home wife.
where i can bake, sew and den go for parties.
no, i dun wanna be a housewife,
i wanna be a stay home wife.
its different ok.
housewifes r , sorry, quite pathetic, but noble, like my mum.
stay home wifes are updated, fun and pro with everything.
you know. haha
granny's party was bad,
the service suck, i was soo tempted to annouce tt i wanna be the organiser for next year.
i`ll make sure there are at least 3 servicing us.
1 for bringing in the food, 1 for clearing the plates and topping up beverages,
and another to help the other 2.
how can they asign jus ONE to attend to the room of like 4 tables?!
that really leveled down the spirit today la.
its been like years since we last had celebrations in restuarants.
back then it was jiahui, han and me singing loudly into the microphone,
our tt favourite song, xiao sa zhou yi hui,
beefing up the energy in the room,
bringing laughters and joy, and with "aww so cute"s.
now the 3 rabbits r like soon 20. omg.
well. now we hav the little beauties,
sarah, charmaine, going ard feeding us cereals in the middle of dinner.
kendria and raphael hugging and falling down.
nana smiling always and never when taking pictures,
brian and his brian lion roar,
nana's smiling baby sister,
and the other new born, sarah's baby bro.
and more to come.
no worries, i`ll contribute, 3, if im rich many 4 or 5!!! haha
but in like erm 10 years time.
ok enough, more family gatherings please!
happy birthday Grandma!
i guess this is the first picture with u,
other then those when im an infant.
sorry i lost count ur age,
sorry i didnt try to get to know you while u were more well,
sorry i didnt care then,
sorry i love you more only now,
sorry i only realise all these now.
ilu.

2006-03-04T00:12:00.000+08:00

more breaks please?
im sooo tired.
soo tired of being Joyce Mak.
this cannot that cannot
urgh.
if i could,
i would,
be sleeping beauty. hohoho.
a not beautiful sleeping beauty.
oh i think i wished for that before right.
ahh u see u see.

2006-03-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

lovers & friends
my dear dalrings who are aboard,
mr wu jia and mr ken foo,
please please do takecare of yourselves,
spend wisely, be careful, no forgetfulness,
always check before you leave a place,
eat well, sleep well, socialise well,
love, care, and initate!
n miss us ok!
interning at Trine is good.
thou they dun do works tt are as crazy as wad the others might be doing,
but they really do educate me,
and provide me with lotsa lotsa information,
out of school informations! (:
lovers, i dun wan any,
mayb i do, mayb i don't,
im still me,
haha. and i still duno how i`ll feel tomorrow.
so i guess, to save us all the trouble,
haha. nvm, i shall stop here.
we`ll see.
btw, BLUSHE CYCLE VII IS OUT!
go check the beauties out!!!
(:
goodnite all,
the owl have to take long leave for now.
75minutes ride.
its jus a ride its jus a ride,
no need to run no need to hide.
yaya Jem, goodnite.

2006-02-23T03:03:00.000+08:00

circle
everyone has a circle.
well, where am i to you and your circle?
am i inside,
or am i outside?
tell me, all of you, everysingle one.
right downn deep inside of you,
do you regard me as someone,
inside, or
OUTSIDE?

2006-02-22T01:15:00.000+08:00

happy sha la la
had to admit, today was really fun.
lotsa playing, laughters, coldjokes,
and not forgetting the pokings.
hah.
wellwell.
i`ll leave all to God.
(:
but its really nice to feel happy,
Thank You God, for today.
and i really hope to make full use of this week,
resting, relaxing and most importantly,
preparing myself, for the internship that starts next monday.
im scared, but looking forward! (:

2006-02-20T00:33:00.000+08:00

KO!
yay! layout is finally down
year 2 is KO already! hahaha!
daniel has flew to perth yesterday morning.
):
jie will miss u! haha
must take care ah!
come online often (:

2006-02-16T03:30:00.000+08:00

imissyou,

my darling thick long messy hair ):

2006-02-14T18:50:00.000+08:00

Master of the Game
haha YESA! 1 more to go.
layout, wang wang..
eee.
well at least im free for sheldon!
(: i got a new one to add to my collection
Master of the Game
YES! its SHELDON TIME!
well well, was blog visiting and realised how much i miss everyone!
i do love my dear friends alot!!
thou they might not love me as much!
haha
i love u all ok! frm the girls to the boys,
the close to the once close to the a lil close.
i wanted to mention names but haha
u know who u are la ah.
but i still love my mama best!
thou she might not know the most,
but she certainly knows the best,
and gives the most, unconditionally.
yes, she's my bestfriend.
Happy V day all darlings, including
those who r out dating, holding hands,
kissing, hugging, sweet talking, giving flowers,
i-love-you-forevering, aiyoyoo
but no hanky pankying ah!

2006-02-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

so yucked-up
haven been updating.
to summarise, everything's been quite bad.
screaming and shoutings,
loud roars of dad and mine,
mean, insensitive, harsh, hurtful things i spilled.
i know they`ll be like lil knifes piercing into u
but well, u asked for it,
and i really hate u for yesterday.
still now, i cant believe the one i respected so much
for all my life could actually behave like that way yesterday.
jus like how a 5year old kid would.
yuck.
im really still quite yucked-up by u.
and the week ended with me waking up
feeling like i hate everyone, and even skipped church.
sleep haven been enuff.
hav been smsing tooo much.
the race with time is really too much for me.
and all these are making my emotions unstable n super unpredictable.
it suck to wake up to feel like u hate everyone
including the ones u loved all your life,
and when u look at them, u feel a confusion of love and hate,
thats really crazy.
and wad made it all worst,
is tt you jus cant figure out whats making you feel like that.
mayb i should stay in lalaland forever.
wana come along?

yes and even actually posted this entry on my BLUSHE blog instead by accident.
how cool is tt man.
image if i didnt bother to click on VIEW BLOG
the blushe viewers ll be like WTF when they read tt.
and nv buy earrings frm me, in case they get cursed too.

2006-02-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

no more hair!
every time i look at the mirror i wanna cry
i have no more hair.
no i mean i very VERY LITTLE HAIR NOW!
i rather be bald!
yukes! if i could i`ll stay indoors till my hair grows back.
im a ugly girl!!! :(
i wan my thick messy hair back!
how i wish i could sleep and wake up to realise tt it was jus a dream
and that i still have my long soon to be desired length hair
messy and thick, and i still could play with them when im watching tv
and that i could still tie my hair all up
with a generous bun of hair
and i still could bun it with the chopstick
and clip it on with the big silver clip
and i only hav to go like 2 3 rounds to tie a tight pony tail
and i could still play sadako to scare every one esp Kendria
and i could still mess them up when im feeling URGHH
AHHHH I HAV NOTHING LEFT!!!
DAMNNNNNN
I WAN MY HAIR BACKKKKKKKKKKKKkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
booohooohoooo
and how i wish i could hide at home and sleep
and wake up one day with hair like RAPUNZEL!
:(

2006-02-01T00:48:00.000+08:00

mummy, ilu
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!
She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I shouldn't be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn't mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn't know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love

Mama I love you, Mama I care
Mama I love you, Mama my friend
You're my friend

I didn't want to hear it then but I'm not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of time to think about, about the way I used to be
Never had a sense of my responsibility

But now I'm sure I know why (I know why)
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All I can give you is love

2mak & a Koh. brian & ugly lecturing aunt. my darling Cockroach Mark :)

well, other than the CNY blues i had yesterday,
the rest was i can say, good.
the babies can walk now,
Brian and Kendria were brick demolishers,
and im the ugly lecturing aunt.
the kids are teens now,
Theron is a big boy,
Aud and i, are getting old!
Kendria has learnt to give way to her brother,
and lil raphael is getting curious and mischievous.
aunty Nancy & Jenny are still as beautiful,
Korrine becoming a nice sensible young girl,
and Mark's still my darling Cockroach Mark,
who forgot im jiejie joyce and calls Audrey L-drey.
Almost every teenager goes tru this period where they
wear nothing but black,
haha its Beatrice's turn.
Sujun is starting to dress up! (:
Yu shen's still my favourite!
yeap,
im looking forward to Sat,
i miss the girls.
well, a year has passed,
i lost more than i gain.
Sorry to those ive loved and lost,
i`ll miss you all,
ready missing.
and to those still with me,
dun leave!! :)
oh n my new year resolution:
complete the sheldon collection! (:

2006-01-30T20:56:00.000+08:00

its heartbreaking that one doesnt want to speak
and one doesnt listen.
it hurt more cos both i love.
it all jus kept me wondering
y couldnt i hav been more observant
to sense the tension
and things wouldnt be like how they are now.

2006-01-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

IF
If a man could be two places at one time,
I'd be with you.
Tomorrow and today, beside you all the way.
If the world should stop revolving spinning slowly down to die,
I'd spend the end with you.
And when the world was through,
Then one by one the stars would all go out,
Then you and I would simply fly away

it wasn't easy.
it really wasn't.
even to return a smile,
it was so so
difficult.
i wish i had the invincible robe.
i`ll steal it from mr potter tml.

2006-01-22T18:00:00.000+08:00

treasure box

meeting up with kat yesterday
made me reflect alot on the current few people in my "close-friends-list"
so after like almost 2 years,
who are they to me,
and where am i to them?
thou we see each other almost everyday
but how much of qualtity time was spent together?
and how many are willing to put sch work aside for
jus one day to spend the whole day out to have fun?
and if i call them now,
do we even have anything to talk about, besides school work?
they need to sustain their relationships with their boyfriends
but do they realise that a friendship needs maintanence too?
and most never seem to hav time for movies with a friend,
and only generous with time when its with their bfs or big groups.
amazing how time seem to jus pop out for special occassions for them!
suddenly all feels so superficial,
like we're no where beyond sch-friends.
ok cool, enough of bitching.
definitly, i cant deny some hav been there for me at times.
but over all, after these 2 years, how far or how close am i to them in their hearts
and where am i to them?
and then some-used-to-be-very-close-to-me-last-time-person,
i so duno wad to do to her.
always declaring how much she feels, how im different from other friends,
how she can only shop with me, now and then long long one time
but then after that goes missing.
always busy for meet ups, and nv initiates ask me out again.
i dun believe you're busy every single day lar.
well, ive warned her many times.
and i duno y she dun seem to even do anything about it.
mayb i jus dun mean so much as how much she do to me.
so if u r reading this,
ok listen up.
i am very disappointed in you. very very disappointed.

2006-01-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

Trine

this is my ideal land.
with a land of green grass,
beautiful petite white and yellow flowers,
trees which bloom like giant flowers,
and a yellow gloss plasticy television in the middle,
and in front of it, is a bed made up of flowers,
no tulips, white, yellow and violet.
and i mean real pure white,
pure yellow w/o a tint of red,
and real rich violet.
yes, thats the perfect place
after a week of early mornings,
rushing to places for interviews,
getting rejected,
and finally found someone whos love me,
all hail to
Trine Design Associates!

2006-01-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

the trapeze swinger

Please, remember me
Happily
By the rosebush laughing
With bruises on my chin
The time when
We counted every black car passing
Your house beneath the hill
And up until
Someone caught us in the kitchen
With maps, a mountain range,
A piggy bank
A vision too removed to mention
But

Please, remember me
Fondly
I heard from someone you're still pretty
And then
They went on to say
That the pearly gates
Had some eloquent graffiti
Like 'We'll meet again'
And 'Fuck the man'
And 'Tell my mother not to worry'
And angels with their gray
Handshakes
Were always done in such a hurry
And

Please, remember me
At Halloween
Making fools of all the neighbors
Our faces painted white
By midnight
We'd forgotten one another
And when the morning came
I was ashamed
Only now it seems so silly
That season left the world
And then returned
And now you're lit up by the city
So

Please, remember me
Mistakenly
In the window of the tallest tower call
Then pass us by
But much too high
To see the empty road at happy hour
Leave and resonate
Just like the gates
Around the holy kingdom
With words like 'Lost and Found' and 'Don't Look Down'
And 'Someone Save Temptation'
And

Please, remember me
As in the dream
We had as rug-burned babies
Among the fallen trees
And fast asleep
Aside the lions and the ladies
That called you what you like
And even might
Give a gift for your behavior
A fleeting chance to see
A trapeze
Swing as high as any savior
But

Please, remember me
My misery
And how it lost me all I wanted
Those dogs that love the rain
And chasing trains
The colored birds above there running
In circles round the well
And where it spells
On the wall behind St. Peter's
So bright with cinder gray
And spray paint
'Who the hell can see forever?'
And

Please, remember me
Seldomly
In the car behind the carnival
My hand between your knees
You turn from me
And said 'The trapeze act was wonderful
But never meant to last'
The clown that passed
Saw me just come up with anger
When it filled with circus dogs
The parking lot
Had an element of danger
So

Please, remember me
Finally
And all my uphill clawing
My dear
But if i make
The pearly gates
Do my best to make a drawing
Of G-d and Lucifer
A boy and girl
An angel kissin on a sinner
A monkey and a man
A marching band
All around the frightened trapeze swingers

remember me,
fondly.
goodnite.
goodbye.
(:

2006-01-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

Raphael, Raphael

"stand straight! pull your ears! LOOK at me and stop crying!"
"mummy, i didnt mean to throw jiahui yi yi's pager on the floor
for like the 3rd time, even though i did it on purpose.
im not wrong, why do you wan to punish me mummy?
you're making me cry!"
*coughs and almost vomited*
"don't you dare vomit ah! swallow it back."
haha.
Raphael, Raphael, listen to joyce yi yi, be a good boy,
and mommy will be happy (:

2006-01-07T02:29:00.000+08:00

to Mr Goh Wei Ming

boy: 1987 - 2008
haha!
admitted for NS on 07 Jan 06, 12pm
please do takecare ah!
though theres no tv, no radio but
drink lotsa water if possible
and maybe can be reminded of Walter.
be joyful always and u can be reminded of me.
i believe you're physically fit enough to take hardship,
so rememeber u are there to become a man
hahaha
well thats what you say
"its time for me to become a man"
yes, and remember to come out in 1 piece,
and time to put on more weight stick man no.2
k lar, takecare takecare takecaree!!
dun forget your old friends
ok i shall stop here before ppl start to wonder if u're dying or going into ns.
well.. do miss us!
see you soon. (:
oh ya! n aiyo dun forget to not pour water on ur face when u r perspiring
white spots r ugly lar!!

2006-01-04T03:23:00.000+08:00

im so ...!!

dont it look like what you think i`ll think it is?
well anyway.
sometimes i really do hate myself
haha
i really really do man.
i think i should extinct
dont you agree?
eew.

The lover's in love and the other's run away
The lover is crying cause the other won't stay
And some of us hover when we weep for the other who
was dying
Since the day they were born well
Well this is not that
I think that I'm throwing but I'm thrown

And I thought I'd live forever but now I'm not so sure
You try to tell me that I'm clever but that won't take me anyhow
Or anywhere with you

And you said that I was naive
And I thought that I was strong
I thought "hey I can leave, I can leave"
But now I know that I was wrong cause I missed you
Yeah I missed you

2006-01-02T03:05:00.000+08:00

2006
new year, new skill (:

i spent the first day of 2006 with this new babe
it was my grand aunt's precious,
then my mum's,
now mine. (:
made pencil box and a bag for myself
i`ll make mommy a bag too for her birthday.

I keep on thinking about worrying about that time
You kept on running out and didn't count the cost
I'll keep on dreaming about worrying about that time
you kept on running out and didn't count the cost
I worry about the wind
You worry about the rain
I worry about the wind
Bout that rain getting in your eye

I'll be there waiting on you babe
I'll be there wishing, hoping and praying
I've been wondering what it's like to have that pain
I got a sweet, sweet heart for you now

2005-12-31T02:15:00.000+08:00

Did you see that four-letter-word?!

2005-12-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

season of giving?
yes, christmas is a season of giving
but what hav i done this christmas for my loved ones?
i was reflecting upon receving 2 christmas cards frm darlings
and remembering seeing this Mark Lee middle aged man
writting christmas cards to those who sent him.
and me? wad did i do?
well, i spent lotsa $$ & bought carebears for the girls last last christmas
and spent lotsa time making n sewing
pouches for the girls and the poly girls
last christmas.
this year i did nothing for anyone.
and only got gifts for 2 persons.
and im wondering, why am i so unsweet this christmas
OH NO! WHERE DID MY HEART GO??!?!!!?!

ha, yea, well,
i promise alritey, next christmas i will give heartily (:

2005-12-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

christmas surprise

the last minute backup plan
yes, my darlin Kendria
she made my half screwed eve felt better
she go crazy when i wiggle my fingers (from far, haha)
she gets high on my "DUN BLUFF!"
she's crazy
she's violent
she's super vain
she's my christmas surprise (:

2005-12-24T01:05:00.000+08:00

CrazyChristmasBaking!

haven been baking for long man.
but i still love crazy mixing and matching (:

christmas eve dinner:
Tomato lingunie with
sotongs! Sotongs! sotongs!,
white mushroom, some fish (mayb salmon),
broccoli, and mayb saussages
yummy!
and my fav peach smoothie (:
yay!
hohoho

2005-12-22T14:26:00.000+08:00

nothing more

i once had a friend, a very good friend.
we hung out together at sch with some other friends
then i sometimes hang out at her place after school
stayed over every now and then.
we stayed up to study for exams and loved math
we talked on the phone on almost everynite
we talked about dream houses, blue and purple rooms.

then we went into different classes
but our friendship was still strong
then, i tot to myself,
she is one of those few foreversi`ll have in my life
(i strongly believe in nothing lasts forever then)
i thought our friendship was strong
i thought the separate class thing was like a challange
and we went through it so we`ll be together forever
we still met up, hung ard,
then i came into poly,
she was still with me,
she was the only few who were willing to come to my sch
for some small project exhibit to see my stuff.
then i was again convinced she will be one forever

then she started in her new sch
i stay over at her place once in a while
and then she called me less.
one day, she called me crying.
i was sad but happy,
i was sad cos she was crying but was happy tt im still someone she turns to
but occassions like this never repeated.
we once had a huge conflict,
that left me tearing for days and nights.
we reconciled but things were different.
we were both busy,
that i didnt realise i was the one calling her out most of the times
but she nv was free for me
she was going through some hard time and i didnt know what to do too,
i wanted to b there, but she nv returned my calls.
i reflected on us and told her how i felt, after sometime
but she did nothing or neither did she say anything.
mayb she's really busy i explained to a friend i was confiding in while she told me
"i think you shouldnt call her again anymore."
its it me or is it her,
or was i so busy running my race that i dropped her somewhere?
do i turn back to find you
or do i walk away?

Inspite of it all
What can i even say
Theres nothing i can do for you yesterday
Inspite of it all
Everybody say
Theres nothing i can do for u yesterday

2005-12-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

funeral.
great
what wonderful christmas gifts ive got
my ipod's dead, warrantly's over-due
im so happy, that im gonna like erm.. cry?
it was bought by my hardearned money for slaving at conrad yea
ho ho ho merry christmas
and i`ll be holding a funeral for my darling
please attend, i`ll notify the details soon.
yes yes. cool.
now i know how tt 'heart pain' thing my parents have been nagging about feels

2005-12-17T03:03:00.000+08:00

fallen

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I've tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I've tried, I've fallen...
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don't come round here
And tell me I told you so...

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It's the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I'm lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarassed
Pretend that they don't see
But it's one missed step
You'll slip before you know it
And there doesn't seem a way to be redeemed

2005-12-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

HEADLINES 15December2005

WAN.overdoze of
Kinderbuenos, make you crazy.
3packs, 6 fingers of them is jus only so not enough.

TOO.dawntan,

my dear DT
has a secret admirer called mr. x, who is her new X-man cos
the siderman Santa gave her last year wasnt suitable! -..-

TREE.ive repeated the imissmimi thousands of times
that i think dawn will soon be able to recite it.
and aaron thinks mimi is some kind of bird.

FALL.i hav an interview on monday.
a riddle to the name of the company.
if xxxxx doesn't want me,
fork, knife, chopstick will.

FAIF. blogger's edit button, grew,

sideways.

SICK. ah wei's tablet is damn nice to use!

2005-12-12T17:19:00.000+08:00

i will love you

Till my body is dust
Till my soul is no more
I will love you
Love you

Till the sun starts to cry
And the moon turns to rust
I will love you
Love you

But I need to know
Will you stay for all time
Forever and a day?

And I'll give my heart
Till the end of our time
Forever and a day

Till the stars fill my eyes
And we touch the last time
I will love you
Love you

2005-12-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

nomore

A kiss is not just a kiss
A smile is more than a smile
Maybe we get together
Maybe forever
Maybe just for a while

I've seen the look in your eye
I've seen you wondering why
There's a centre of gravity
Brings you near to me
Nearer all the time

And I'm petrified
Hypnotised
Every time you walk by
And I can't get you
Out of my

Thought you'd never be mine
I thought I was wasting my time
Darling every day I think of you
I can't believe it's true
That you're here by my side

And I'm petrified
Hypnotised
Every time you walk by
And I'm petrified
Hypnotised
Every time you walk by
And I can't get you
Out of my
Mind

i still can smile.
im a brave girl today.
but when monday comes,
i hope i wont b regretting
for being brave today.
after all, im shy.

2005-12-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

cinema trip wanted!

MOVIES MOVIES MOVIES
MOVIE DATES ANYONE
i need to visit the cinema,
i've almost forgot how one look like!

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2005-12-08T07:04:00.000+08:00

6:45AM

good morning, morning.

good morning, beautiful.

I'm smiling at you(:

2005-12-08T04:14:00.000+08:00

to be dones:
1.VM final display
2.design portfolio reflection
3.design portfolio (anyhow one for felix)
4.MULTIMEDIA FUN 100KB 5pages website!! zzz
5.think of what to wear for "interview"
6.SLEEP

great, its 4.16am in the morning
and im deciding whether to sleep or not.
if i dunt i can start on my multi fun
if i do.. im sure i`ll b late for e 9am class tml.
well well.
ive already on my straightener..
haha like wad nelsie does
straighten 1st den sleep
den in the morning no need straighten so much
haha!

my tv has been repaired today
the screen look so HUGE suddenly
yessa!
no more suffering with the punie screen (:

imagine if i have my baby turquoise vespa...
i can sleep all the way till 8,
i dun hav to squeeze like sardines with all those like me, dozing off-ers in the sbs branded sardine can,
and suffer from trying to catch some sleep while balancing with those over populated with hands bars,
and then after class i can jus VROoooom home to ZZZZZZZ...
hmmm AWESOMEEEEEEE

2005-12-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

From you, For you my dear (:

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you.
And share with you it's beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own.
A place to find serenity
A place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea.
But all these things I'm finding
are impossible for me,
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be...what I know best,
a friend that's always there.

She is one of those good things i wanna thank God for.
Though assignments r pilling, and ive got a long tired day today
A little something from a Darlin can really brighten up my day.
and remember dear when ur feeling weary sing
"God will make a way,
Where there seem to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide,
Hold me closely to his side.
With love and strenght for each new day,
He will make a way,
He will make a way."
darlin be strong, even if u are left alone.
God will make a way, where there seem to be no way.
Remember that.
And no matter what
You still have ME, always.
though i cant kill all ur villians,
though i cant eat up all ur sorrows,
though i cant vaccum away all ur worries,
but i promise u can turn to me for comfort and love.
miss you (:

2005-12-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

If I could do anything for you, believe me I would
Do you feel the same? feel the same as me?
If I could be anyone for you believe me I would
I'm not ashamed not ashamed to be

Its hard for me to know, sometimes I feel like letting go
But what if it all means something?
What if it all
What if it all means something?
What if it all

If I could go anywhere for you, believe me I would
I'd run away, I'd ran away, I'd leave.
If I could fix everything for you, believe me I would
Do you feel the same, feel the same as me?

Its hard for me to know, well maybe I should just let go

2005-12-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

thankyou.
Jesus i believe in you
Jesus i belong to you
You're reason that i live
the reason that i sing

thank you for everything
thou there are lotsa bad times,
i still wanna thank you for the good ones.
thank you. (:

2005-12-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

Santa baby
its time i stop watching every single television program on my pathetic few channels,
its time i quit msning 24-7 which i cant deny is one of the major distractions,
its time i start focusing on the right stuff,
its time i listen to the mind and nt the wild heart,
its time i go to lalaland and pay up,
and
its time for christmas songs to sing haha!

Santa Baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry down the chimney tonight

Come and trim my Christmas tree
With some decorations bought at Tiffany's
I really do believe in you
Let's see if you believe in me, too
Santa Baby,
Forgot to mention one little thing
A ring
I don't mean on the phone

Santa Baby,
So hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry down the chimney tonight
Hurry...tonight

2005-11-30T02:19:00.000+08:00

EEE!

Fav fashion photographer nt found
Layout concept nt finalised
Multimedia fund concept nt consulted
Pcomdi Philosophy of Design nt done
Vm sketch book nt touched
Resume not sent
Sleep debt not paid
Digi Img more shooting to come
And tml nite's gonna b devoted to Church Camp
...

Im so D E A D lar.

2005-11-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

Stay.

Stay, ahhh Just a little bit longer
Please, please, please, please, please Tell me that you're going to

Now your daddy don't mind And your Mommy don't mind
If we have another dance, ya Just one more time

Oh, won't you stay Just a little bit longer
Please let me hear you say That you will

Won't you place your Sweet lips to mine
Won't you say you love me All the time

Oh ya, just a little bit longer Please, please, please, please, please
Tell me your going to Come on, come on, come on, stay

ive got quite abit to do you know.
jus abit, that kinda lil abit thats not very little.
like.
by tml
Digi img- the 10images
Sip- resume n cv done
Bday present- earrings for lynette
Blushe- shoot 2 earrings
for the week
layout & design- start on tt assignment tt i hardly understood
multi fund- do the 20kb website(20kb is so lil that i duno wad to do for the web!)
Pcomdi- write design philosophy
Fashion img- Research
Visual Merchandising- VM sketch book
beauty- pay sleep debt!

yes i hav this lil to convince myself that its not much.
cool right?

2005-11-26T04:01:00.000+08:00

that movie brought back yesterdays
i cant help but wish you were watching it again with me
emotions grew strong,
like thou i knew how we didnt belong,
its still so strong, so strong, i wonder if its real.
the old tune, the familiar scenes,
the one who was with me.
the home that felt so like home.
made me happy, but for jus awhile
i wonder y it was jus so temporary
i start wondering y i could allow self centeredness to overcome me
y you too didnt compromise
if i were more sensitive
you were more understanding
if we were both less selfish
how would that hav been?
if tears had fallen while the old tune sang
would that be for us, or jus my emotions & i?
the cute illustrated card
the note by my window
the pretty poems
hav anyone mentioned that you write quite well?
laugh. laugh with me, laugh AT me.
well.then again, nothing lasts forever
nothing will,
my tension within will ease (:
as for tonite,
the tune shall be my lullaby
and tomorrow,
be kind when im hiding away eye to eye

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

2005-11-25T01:12:00.000+08:00

weight of it all

show me where the sun comes through the sky
i'll show you where the rain gets in
and i'll show you hurricanes
and the way that summer fades
underneath the weight of it all

2005-11-24T03:26:00.000+08:00

GoodMorning,crazy!

its crazy to not be sleeping now when ive gotta wake up at 6 later.
well well,
i`ll jus omit the sleep tonite
and come back early later for a nap before aikido
i soo feel like nt going for lesson later.
i soo feel like going for a jog now.
i soo feel like dreaming now.
i soo feel like FLYING! WOOOHOOO
hahaha!
yes, please say
"SIAO"

i'll be there for you
these five words i swear to you
when you breathe i want to be the air for you
i`ll be there for you
i'd live and i'd die for you
steal the sun from the sky for you
words can;t say what love can do
i`ll be there for you

2005-11-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

A for beads
B for beads
C for beads
D for beads
Beads beads beads.
i see beads when im supposed to do up my portfolio.
i see beads when im watching the designers piece up a dress for Sarah on Project Runway.
i see beads in the mince meat tou fu from my Dinner.
i see beads falling from the shower head.
i see beads while im bleading my yummy Peach Smoothy.
i see beads in the hazelnut choco in my Kinder Bueno.
im gonna dream of beads!

WAHHH!
YVONNE LAU

my long lost sec2 bestfriend!!
is my dearest cousin who lives 4floors down's poly goodfriend!
hahahhaaa
WAAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHHHH
those crazy days.
chinese tuition,
hamster hunting in her hse,
recking out some random scanner,
jinko jeans! OMG,
lying to tuition teacher we need the toilet after hearing the ice cream man bell
n escape out for ice cream, n tries to gobble it all up asap!
hahhahhaa
hope we can meet up soon man
(:

2005-11-20T01:45:00.000+08:00

Pollution.

Fish tanks need to be cleansed after sometime.
the water gets Polluted overtime.
Fishes need new clean environment.
all we need to do is to Dispose the Greenish water
and replace them with clean water.
thats all.

BUT,
What happens when my tank has gotten Polluted,
What if i need a new clean environment,
What if i need to Dispose those pollutants,
What do i do?
What do i do?

btw,
my CycleIV beauties r released already.
so please DO SUPPORT (:

2005-11-18T01:58:00.000+08:00

reflect.

its time you should reflect.
my reflection is ugly.
ive been eating double.
ive already look quite double.
soon my weight's gonna b doubled.
yeap cool.
i`ll jus double upp all the way till
im sg's biggest woman.
im humble i wont go international yet.

well well well,
even my bro knows to let me go 1st
when we were alighting the bus,
you should really reflect.
not only on that ofcos~
reflect. reflect. reflect.

Blushe Cycle IV ll soon be released!
YeSA! keep the refresh button busy babes!
time for a lil silly advertising?
haha

2005-11-15T01:37:00.000+08:00

Lover's Concerto
a great film.
it made me cry (:
i wan a bestfriend who`ll exchange names with me,
so that we`ll never be apart, too.

my bro and i had the same stupid habit.

(my bro spilled some honey water in my room)

me: last time, when i spill a small amt of water on the floor at night,
i would sit on it and wipe it with my pj.

(we both laughed out loud)

bro: actually, i also!

im having headache, but i cant sleep.
ive been having headache, since jus now in school,
it haven stop yet, but i still cant sleep.
will morning soon come?

2005-11-13T10:25:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow
i feel like watching my Tomorrow vcd
again and again
again and again.
i wish everyone had their auto video recorders
that records the everydays of our lives
then in future
i can sit on my vintage sofa
with my Santa,
after
we've seen our grand and great grand kids roll onto earth,
we've gone travelling ard the world,
we're finish laughing at our winkled faces,
we're slept in the snow,
watching the days of our youth,
laughing at our silly old selfs.
awww..
alrite alrite.
good morning.

i woke up late again for Church.
im terribly sorry.
i really do not enjoy being late.

2005-11-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

good morning.
i had jus woke up frm my long long sleep
i fell asleep since i duno when
all i know is that
for the past months of this year
ive been in deep deep sleep
ive been sleep walking everyday
ive my mind semi off
and the another minority on other unnecessary issues
i think ive been trying to save the batteries of my thinking cap
raise and shine.
good morning to me.
good morning to me.
good morning to me.
goodmorning!

2005-11-11T01:33:00.000+08:00

time machine
i got in touch with 2 old friends today (:
the bball duo.

the brainy Walter is still brainily mugging smartly for his As.
my fellow maths lover. my rescuer when im trapped in the mathematics cobweb.
oh. and Walter wants to be an Event Planner in future.
Walter bottle stick man. Ha Ha Ha.
i wonder if he is still sticky..

according to Weiming,
he is gonna do badly for his big A.
the mia-dont-pick-calls-dont-go-online-home-straight-after-school-nerd
said that he regret playing too much and not studying for his Big A.
major transformation man.
and please laugh.
he still wants to be a Policeman next time.
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
i wonder if he is still chao-ta-ed...

the bball freaks r still bball freaks.
weiming still speak in the same way.
walter still is the brainy wearing the goody goody shoes.
i love talking to old friends.i love talking to old friends.i love talking to old friends.
i love talking to nice old friends.i love talking to nice old friends.i love talking to nice old friends.
i wish we were bestfriends.i wish we were bestfriends.i wish we were bestfriends.
goodnight old friends.
goodnight nice old friends.
goodnight nice old friends who i wish were my bestfriends.
(:

2005-11-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

greatest fear:
loneliness.
thats what ive concluded after sorting out why i felt in certain ways lately.
its always like that. sometime after something ended,
when u start to forget the ugly times and the ugly side,
and start reminiscing the good times and miss them
and the ones who were part of you then.
today's my 1st day of sch.
i haven caught my breath yet
n ive gotta dive down deeper again.
i really gotta work hard this sem.
i cant keep lookin down on myself,
cos soon others ll.
and ive got a mess of things to pack
from the china trip.
i really wish for an extra week for me to prepare myself
for this new semester man.
well well.im always asking for more time.
i tink sometimes i should jus bother less,
and jus heck like most of the rest do,
and things ll b less ugly.
haha
heck, joyce heck, bother less.
uh huh and im lagging back at lotsa stuff.
i gotta catch up with aikido!
i gotta catch up with my girls
i gotta catch up with my cousin
i gotta catch up with the TV programmes
and i gotta catch up with myself.

damn i tink my tv jus broke down..
cool.
great
purfect.

从第一场电影到最后一封信开始你是个姓名后来你是个背影
从第一个吻到最后一眼神开始我们是秘密后来却变得透明
像错过的花季总是来不及去珍惜又像意外的阵雨不能承受的轻
但我不要忘记那样做太刻意就让当时的惊喜持续一背子的心情
我也不说曾经那样想太逃避如果当时心有灵犀能当作我们爱过的证明